A Bizarre Longing

Sometimes you just feel different. You want different and expect different as well and then all the way the same. But, at times you feel certain unusual craving inside you which doesn't easily settle, in my case it's the craving which will give me nothing in particular but I want to do it. I want to do it for the other person not for myself.  Strange! But I feel a bizarre longing to love someone. Love a friend or even a stranger, I don't care. A stranger! Yes, that's what is bizarre.

LOVE, not to be loved back, but just love, simply and purely. For my own satisfaction or may be to complete myself as a person. But is it just about myself?

How about the one receiving the amount of this love? Wouldn't that person feel good after learning that 'He is vital' for other person in this otherwise messed up world, where relations lose their desirability in a fleeting time.

Whatever! I just want to love someone. And loving in such a manner in which he is never loved before. I would want to make the one feel out of this world, and would like to acquaint him about him. I want to appreciate every ingredient with which he is made and be interested in every tiny thought that crosses his mind. I want to be an avid listener to his stories, and the one who delights in his happiness. I unfailingly want to be there for him whenever he needs me and otherwise.

Caressing his hair, and trying to get drift of his every emotion. Showing genuine interest in knowing about his dainty encounters. Keeping a track on every little detail that he might be concerned with and every single person he has to do something with. But most importantly, I want him to see himself through my eyes, I would want to manifest him the beauty with which he is designed, how diligently he is important to this world and me for that matter. I would want to unveil the colors of this world to see the smile on his face. I will never fail to remind him that he is special for me. Never will I leave a chance that he gets to see the blue in his life. I would be there with him in the meltdowns (If any) standing like a pillar abreast him, So that he stands upright.

I would cast aside all the judgments passed against him, and ignore all the negative eyes. Irrespective of how is that person is treated in public; he would get all the attention from me and some more. There would be no basis of this love, maybe that's why it seems special. I would not love him for how is he as a person, but rather for how I am?

I want to transport the one I love to an entirely different world, where he is respected and pampered for who he is.

I'm not sure of who I want to love, and why? But,

I want to love someone unflinchingly and wholeheartedly.

P.s - Call it love for a human-being or friendship straight from the heart or a chance to make (best) use of the resource; you are having in shed loads which apparently is 'love' in my case. Sharing is good, so why not share that? *Wink*

Thanks for reading,

LOVE,

Jay