Isn't It Incredible?

Yes It is and it feels so mesmerizing. It is breathtaking feeling almost. When?

When you are complacent!! When you are smug about the things that scared the life out of you at some juncture of your life.

You never thought you will grow confident, and look at you now not just confident but so astonishingly satisfied you have become, with all the things just remaining the same, the conditions, the people, and the only thing changing is your Attitude and times of course !

Isn't It really Incredible?

Ask to the one that use to fear everything then and now almost extremely dying for those same things.

It is such a lovely feeling when you smile just like that for no reason, when your heart confirms that you are so handsomely happy for the things that happened to you, all the So-Called BAD things as you say... Loneliness-Rejection-Denial and that big bundle of negative emotions including 'FEAR'. Something that daunted you every second of your life, something that didn't allow you to sleep, something that robbed the quiet and peace from your Life stulifying it so much that you almost reached the stage where you lost Every Hope, and you shuddered, you felt chills in your body! The people who didn't care to be with you that time, in your bad phase of life, no body looked up to you, no body called you, nobody messaged you, you lost touch with people you called "friends" and then ultimately you lost touch with yourself, and that time was so badly evil that you lost yourself, thoughts of ending your own life dwelt in your mind. You became a carcass.

And the worst thing,

NO BODY CARED.

Not when you were feeling alone and needed someone.

Not when you wanted to cry your heart out.

Not when you were expecting someone to turn up and accept you as you were.

Not when you wanted to speak.

Not when you wanted shoulders and a mere HUG

Not a statement saying "Gabra mat, main tere saath hun".

No, people weren't busy! Neither they were selfish! Nor was god being indifferent!

In fact, it was Him (The Ultimate One) who was watching this with utmost pleasure. And not only this He was the one who designed this for you, yes that loneliness, those fears, that trembling situation where you almost died not just once but millions of times.

Know why?

Because that was for 'YOU'. It was only then that you realized that trying to find your own happiness from people, from outside is such a BIG blunder you make, it is not going anywhere, because all you will be getting in return would be Indifference and a stupid empty feeling that "Nobody cares".

Then your heart closes for some time, and your logical brains start operating (Mine did). And then you realize that In pursuit of finding happiness all you got was 'Sadness'. And your approach was so wrong. How can you expect people to love you and accept you when in the first place you, yourself don't accept yourself?

Stop being so harsh on yourself...

You need power to Love yourself first (Because if you can't How come others will) Accept yourself, Accept your faults, Understand you are not perfect because nobody can be. Introspect within for what went wrong? Stop relying on people to know yourself. Know for yourself, understand yourself and decide things on your own.

How can someone hurt you and tell you who you are without your permission?

The bad thing is people often do this and they won't stop it. The fact is you have to stop. You have to stop taking their judgments so seriously, Just don't pay the heed to what they say about you (Ultimately you know yourself, and what you think of yourself matters and not what others think of you)

Take the shit from people almost smilingly and when they turn back, Bury that over that place and just Move on ...Because there are so many other important things that you are supposed to do rather than this shit.

Be confident about what you are doing is right if it is that what your heart says you to do.

People are people, they are made to hurt you in some way or other, but your attitude would change everything. You could use that Condemn to hurt yourself and as source of your tears, and other way round you can use it as source of your own motivation to move ahead.

Yep its your choice, Seriously all these bad things happen to you to make you aware about you and your own strengths. It is actually that simple.

Stop Crying. What happened just happened! You have got no control over the past but future.

You can change things now, You can make things work for you your way, Be serene, Be calm, make peace with yourself, love that tender heart inside you which is craving to get love, once your own heart is satisfied, you will have overflow of love, and then others would be getting that love too, once they get it, they can't resist loving you back, respecting you, respecting your opinions, and accepting you so cordially. 

So ultimately you got what you want and how ? Just by changing your attitude towards your life, towards your problems, towards other people. 

It happened with me as well, Even I was alone, Even I was Rejected, Even I had my share in shedding tears, Even I wanted things that time which weren't granted to me, But Now?

Now I have got gazillion reasons to Thank god,  It just happened when I changed My attitude, It just happened when I tried to Understand myself and I started working on my shortcomings, On my fears.

I stopped judging myself,  I worked on the things I was already good at, and on the things I was surprisingly bad, I stopped myself from knowing just everything, I adopted minimalist approach of life,  I tried to smile,  I tried to be happy with just what I had,  I tried to find reasons to be thankful towards everything and everyone, I moved out of my shell,  I came out of my comfort zone and did things that generally I would easily get away with,  I put in efforts to speak to people,  I was considered A reticent before and Now I am the greatest of Blabbermouths that people know of.

And Finally I was sorted one day, I was so happy after meeting myself. It was such a Beautiful journey of knowing myself, I Started incessantly Thanking to all people who weren't there with me when I needed them, because then I couldn't have got the World's Biggest Gift - "Me"

And Now, I revel in my Life, Even In my fears, even when I am having a Downfall because its all for Good I have known this over the years of loneliness

I dance in delight. I am carefree; I welcome Problems so I can discover one more new aspect about myself.

I am friendly and warmer than before, I search for the opportunities to help someone with something today,

I Celebrate Myself every day! I thank god for making me what I am today, I never in my life thought I could 

Ever wake up smiling, just be happy without any reason, Keep Faith, Act Confident

But all of these Presents which looked impossible once, came to me in the nicest way possible, they knocked on my door one day and I kept them forever, and now they are stuck to my 'Soul'

So, if you are in a situation where you feel there is nobody who loves you, Remember There is God who always does, and he always will! Don't Lose Hope, have some faith in Yourself, Pull up your socks once again, Cry for some time, and then pick up those pieces of your lovely heart and move on with it, Give your life a New direction, work on your skills and your flaws, and once again the day will come when you will SHINE and shine so sparklingly that everybody will see!! You will be happy without people, without anything but yourself, that happiness will last till eternity because you accidentally clicked that "Super-Abundant-Happy' button in your heart, and now the procreation of it would never stop !! But that's what you wanted No? Of course...


So If my Life could change, Why can't yours? trust me It will... 

Just start loving yourself, because that's the core step

All I observe myself asking often now is “Isn't It Incredible"?

And then I smile in a smug satisfaction which answers this question J

Thanks for reading…

LOVE,

Jay